Amazing Personal Stories of a Near Death Experiences
By Jafree Ozwald
I have always said to people
who are afraid of death to understand that their ego is clinging to life,
and the grasping, desperate energy is creating the fear
to explore the Universes beyond. Whenever we try to hold on to anything to
tightly, any thought or feeling, we invoke suffering. In fact, all
suffering in life stems from some form of attachment. Being overly
attached to our thoughts and feelings about our most precious things, like
our body, relationships, things, money, desires, and who we "think" we
are. We have to let it all go when we die. There are no pockets in Heaven,
you cannot bring anything with you, thank God!
The greatest death that we each
need to embrace is this over attachment to all our thoughts, emotions, and
desires. When we loosen our tight grip on our inner world, it creates a
freedom that opens tens thousand new doors. We begin to see that we are
not our mind, body or any of our desires. This creates a softening feeling
inside and we take life with less effort and more ease.
The death of
the ego is the ultimate death we are all attempting to experience.
This is what "enlightenment" is like. When there is no opinionated mind in
the way, it opens the Universe up to all the infinite possibilities that
This state of no-mind is what real meditation is all about, and invokes a state of gratitude, humbleness and reverence for this amazing
experience called life. The day we embrace death is the day we know
that we do not die. That we actually do go on....and on...and on!
What a paradoxical world we live in.
I have experienced many spiritual
awakenings in life, and each one was very similar to the descriptions of
people who have physically died and came back from the other side to talk
about. Near Death
Experiences are real, totally amazing and give us the comfort of knowing
life is a creative eternal adventure.
I've done months of research
on near death experiences and have come to the conclusion that death is
definitely going to be the most
amazing experience we will ever have in our lives. It has to
be. Death is the absolute peak of life, and without death there can be no
life. Death is something to look forward to, to relax into and
it is not to be feared. There are thousands of real life accounts of
peoples experiences when they died, who came back to say it was something
amazing. They found out the secret to truly enjoy life, and
embrace death at the same time. It is through this embrace of both
extremes that we become fully alive, present and even healed.
"You too shall pass away. Knowing this, how can you quarrel?"
The following video is a TED talk from Anita Moorjani.
She is a woman who died in a hospital from stage 4 cancer, and used the
heavenly power she found to heal her body naturally from
all cancer without the doctors help.
The following accounts below
are written stories of Near Death Experiences people have had. The
first comes from a man who came back with many
answers to questions we all have. His discovery was so moving and heart opening
I had to share it with you. I hope his
message touches you deeply too.
Mellen-Thomas Benedict is an artist
who survived a near-death experience in 1982. He was dead for over an hour
and a half after dying of cancer. At the time of his death, he rose up out
of his body and went into the light. Curious about the universe, he was
taken far into the remote depths of existence, and even beyond, into the
energetic void of nothingness behind the Big Bang. During his experience,
he was able to learn a great deal of information concerning reincarnation.
Because of his near-death experience,
he was able to bring back scientific discoveries. Mr. Benedict has been
closely involved in the mechanics of cellular communication and research
dealing with the relationship of light to life called Quantum Biology.
This research is providing dramatic new perspectives on how biological
systems work. Mr. Benedict has found that living cells can respond very
quickly to light stimulation resulting in, among other things, high speed
healing. He is a researcher, inventor and lecturer who holds six U.S.
"Through The Light"
By Mellen-Thomas Benedict
In 1982 I died from terminal cancer. The condition I had was inoperable,
and any kind of chemotherapy they could give me would just have made me
more of a vegetable. I was given six to eight months to live. I had been
an information freak in the 1970's, and I had become increasingly
despondent over the nuclear crisis, the ecology crisis, and so forth. So,
since I did not have a spiritual basis, I began to believe that nature had
made a mistake, and that we were probably a cancerous organism on the
planet. I saw no way that we could get out from all the problems we had
created for ourselves and the planet. I perceived all humans as cancer,
and that is what I got. That is what killed me. Be careful what your world
view is. It can feed back on you, especially if it is a negative world
view. I had a seriously negative one. That is what led me into my death. I
tried all sorts of alternative healing methods, but nothing helped.
So I determined that this was really just between me and God. I had never
really faced God before, or even dealt with God. I was not into any kind
of spirituality at the time, but I began a journey into learning about
spirituality and alternative healing. I set out to do all the reading I
could and bone up on the subject, because I did not want to be surprised
on the other side. So I started reading on various religions and
philosophies. They were all very interesting, and gave hope that there was
something on the other side.
On the other hand, as a self-employed stained-glass artist at the time, I
had no medical insurance whatsoever. So my life savings went overnight in
testing. Then I was facing the medical profession without any kind of
insurance. I did not want to have my family dragged down financially, so I
determined to handle this myself. There was not constant pain, but there
were black-outs. I got so that I would not dare to drive, and eventually I
ended up in hospice care. I had my own personal hospice caretaker. I was
very blessed by this angel who went through the last part of this with me.
I lasted about eighteen months. I did not want to take a lot of drugs,
since I wanted to be as conscious as possible. Then I experienced such
pain that I had nothing but pain in my consciousness, luckily only for a
few days at a time.
I remember waking up one morning at home about 4:30 am, and I just knew
that this was it. This was the day I was going to die. So I called a few
friends and said goodbye. I woke up my hospice caretaker and told her. I
had a private agreement with her that she would leave my dead body alone
for six hours, since I had read that all kinds of interesting things
happen when you die. I went back to sleep. The next thing I remember is
the beginning of a typical near-death experience. Suddenly I was fully
aware and I was standing up, but my body was in the bed. There was this
darkness around me. Being out of my body was even more vivid than ordinary
experience. It was so vivid that I could see every room in the house, I
could see the top of the house, I could see around the house, I could see
under the house.
There was this light shining. I turned toward the light. The light was
very similar to what many other people have described in their near-death
experiences. It was so magnificent. It is tangible; you can feel it. It is
alluring; you want to go to it like you would want to go to your ideal
mother's or father's arms.
As I began to move toward the light, I knew intuitively that if I went to
the light, I would be dead. So as I was moving toward the light I said,
"Please wait a minute, just hold on a second here. I want to think about
this; I would like to talk to you before I go." To my surprise, the
entire experience halted at that point. You are indeed in control of your
near-death experience. You are not on a roller coaster ride. So my request
was honored and I had some conversations with the light. The light kept
changing into different figures, like Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, Mandalas,
archetypal images and signs.
I asked the light, "What is going on here? Please, light, clarify yourself
for me. I really want to know the reality of the situation." I
cannot really say the exact words, because it was sort of telepathy. The
light responded. The information transferred to me was that your beliefs
shape the kind of feedback you are getting before the light. If you were a
Buddhist or Catholic or Fundamentalist, you get a feedback loop of your
own stuff. You have a chance to look at it and examine it, but most people
As the light revealed itself to me, I became aware that what I was really
seeing was our Higher Self matrix. The only thing I can tell you is that
it turned into a matrix, a Mandala of human souls, and what I saw was that
what we call our Higher Self in each of us is a matrix. It's also a
conduit to the Source; each one of us comes directly, as a direct
experience from the Source. We all have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part
of our being. It revealed itself to me in its truest energy form. The only
way I can really describe it is that the being of the Higher Self is more
like a conduit. It did not look like that, but it is a direct connection
to the Source that each and every one of us has. We are directly connected
to the Source.
So the light was showing me the Higher Self matrix. And it became very
clear to me that all the Higher Selves are connected as one being, all
humans are connected as one being, we are actually the same being,
different aspects of the same being. It was not committed to one
particular religion. So that is what was being fed back to me. And I saw
this Mandala of human souls. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever
seen. I just went into it and, it was just overwhelming. It was like all
the love you've every wanted, and it was the kind of love that cures,
As I asked the light to keep explaining, I understood what the Higher Self
matrix is. We have a grid around the planet where all the Higher Selves
are connected. This is like a great company, a next subtle level of energy
around us, the spirit level, you might say. Then, after a couple of
minutes, I asked for more clarification. I really wanted to know what the
universe is about, and I was ready to go at that time. I said, "I am
ready, take me." Then the light turned into the most beautiful thing that
I have ever seen: a Mandala of human souls on this planet.
Now I came to this with my negative view of what has happened on the
planet. So as I asked the light to keep clarifying for me, I saw in this
magnificent Mandala how beautiful we all are in our essence, our core. We
are the most beautiful creations. The human soul, the human matrix that we
all make together is absolutely fantastic, elegant, exotic, everything. I
just cannot say enough about how it changed my opinion of human beings in
that instant. I said, "Oh, God, I did not know how beautiful we
At any level, high or low, in
whatever shape you are in, you are the most beautiful creation, you are.
I was astonished to find that there was no evil in any soul. I said,
"How can this be?" The answer was that no soul was inherently evil. The
terrible things that happened to people might make them do evil things,
but their souls were not evil. What all people seek, what sustains them,
is love, the light told me. What distorts people is a lack of love.
The revelations coming from the light seemed to go on and on, then I asked
the light, "Does this mean that humankind will be saved?"
Then, like a trumpet blast with a shower of spiraling lights, the Great
Light spoke, saying, "Remember this and never forget; you save, redeem and
heal yourself. You always have. You always will. You were created with the
power to do so from before the beginning of the world." In that
instant I realized even more. I realized that WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED,
and we saved ourselves because we were designed to self-correct like the
rest of God's universe. This is what the second coming is about.
I thanked the light of God with all my heart. The best thing I could come
up with was these simple words of totally appreciation: "Oh dear God, dear
Universe, dear Great Self, I love my life." The light seemed to
breathe me in even more deeply. It was as if the light was completely
absorbing me. The love light is, to this day, indescribable. I entered
into another realm, more profound than the last, and became aware of
something more, much more. It was an enormous stream of light, vast and
full, deep in the heart of life. I asked what this was.
The light responded, "This is the RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of this manna water
to your heart's content." So I did. I took one big drink and then another.
To drink of life Itself! I was in ecstasy. Then the light said, "You
have a desire." The light knew all about me, everything past,
present and future. "Yes!" I whispered.
I asked to see the rest of the universe; beyond our solar system, beyond
all human illusion. The light then told me that I could go with the
Stream. I did, and was carried through the light at the end of the tunnel.
I felt and heard a series of very soft sonic booms. What a rush!
Suddenly I seemed to be rocketing away from the planet on this stream of
life. I saw the earth fly away. The solar system, in all its splendor,
whizzed by and disappeared. At faster than light speed, I flew through the
center of the galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I went. I learned that
this galaxy, and all of the universe, is bursting with many different
varieties of LIFE. I saw many worlds. The good news is that we are not
alone in this universe!
As I rode this stream of consciousness through the center of the galaxy,
the stream was expanding in awesome fractal waves of energy. The super
clusters of galaxies with all their ancient wisdom flew by. At first I
thought I was going somewhere; actually traveling. But then I realized
that, as the stream was expanding, my own consciousness was also expanding
to take in everything in the universe! All creation passed by me. It was
an unimaginable wonder! I truly was a wonder child; a babe in Wonderland!
It seemed as if all the creations in the universe soared by me and
vanished in a speck of light. Almost immediately, a second light appeared.
It came from all sides, and was so different; a light made up of more than
every frequency in the universe.
I felt and heard several velvety sonic booms again. My consciousness, or
being, was expanding to interface with the entire holographic universe and
As I passed into the second light, the awareness came to me that I had
just transcended the truth. Those are the best words I have for it, but I
will try to explain. As I passed into the second light, I expanded beyond
the first light. I found myself in a profound stillness, beyond all
silence. I could see or perceive FOREVER, beyond infinity. I was in the
void. I was in pre-creation, before the Big Bang. I had crossed over the
beginning of time - the first word - the first vibration. I was in the eye
of creation. I felt as if I was touching the face of God. It was not a
religious feeling. Simply I was at one with absolute life and
When I say that I could see or perceive forever, I mean that I could
experience all of creation generating itself. It was without beginning and
without end. That's a mind-expanding thought, isn't it? Scientists
perceive the Big Bang as a single event which created the universe. I saw
that the Big Bang is only one of an infinite number of Big Bangs creating
universes endlessly and simultaneously. The only images that even come
close in human terms would be those created by supercomputers using
fractal geometry equations.
The ancients knew of this. They said Godhead periodically created new
universes by breathing out, and de-creating other universes by breathing
in. These epochs were called Yugas. Modern science called this the Big
Bang. I was in absolute, pure consciousness. I could see or perceive all
the Big Bangs or Yugas creating and de-creating themselves. Instantly I
entered into them all simultaneously. I saw that each and every little
piece of creation has the power to create. It is very difficult to try to
explain this. I am still speechless about this.
It took me years after I returned to assimilate any words at all for the
void experience. I can tell you this now; the void is less than nothing,
yet more than everything that is! The void is absolute zero; chaos forming
all possibilities. It is absolute consciousness; much more than even
Where is the void? I know. The void is inside and outside everything. You,
right now even while you live, are always inside and outside the void
simultaneously. You don't have to go anywhere or die to get there. The
void is the vacuum or nothingness between all physical manifestations. The
SPACE between atoms and their components. Modern science has begun to
study this space between everything. They call it zero-point. Whenever
they try to measure it, their instruments go off the scale, or to
infinity, so to speak. They have no way, as of yet, to measure infinity
accurately. There is more of the zero space in your own body and the
universe than anything else!
What mystics call the void is not a void. It is so full of energy, a
different kind of energy that has created everything that we are.
Everything since the Big Bang is vibration, from the first word, which is
the first vibration. The Biblical "I am" really has a question mark
after it. "I am? What am I?"
So creation is God exploring God's Self through every way imaginable, in
an ongoing, infinite exploration through every one of us. Through every
piece of hair on your head, through every leaf on every tree, through
every atom, God is exploring God's Self, the great "I am". I began to see
that everything that is, is the Self, literally, your Self, my Self.
Everything is the great Self. That is why God knows even when a leaf
falls. That is possible because wherever you are is the center of the
universe. Wherever any atom is, that is the center of the universe. There
is God in that, and God in the void.
As I was exploring the void and all the Yugas or creations, I was
completely out of time and space as we know it. In this expanded state, I
discovered that creation is about absolute pure consciousness, or God,
coming into the experience of life as we know it. The void itself is
devoid of experience. It is pre-life, before the first vibration. Godhead
is about more than life and death. Therefore there is even more than life
and death to experience in the universe!
I was in the void and I was aware of everything that had ever been
created. It was like I was looking out of God's eyes. I had become God.
Suddenly I wasn't me anymore. The only thing I can say, I was looking out
of God's eyes. And suddenly I knew why every atom was, and I could see
The interesting point was that I went into the void, I came back with this
understanding that God is not there. God is here. That's what it is all
about. So this constant search of the human race to go out and find God
... God gave everything to us, everything is here - this is where it's at.
And what we are into now is God's exploration of God through us. People
are so busy trying to become God that they ought to realize that we are
already God and God is becoming us. That's what it is really about.
When I realized this, I was finished with the void, and wanted to return
to this creation, or Yuga. It just seemed like the natural thing to do.
Then I suddenly came back through the second light, or the Big Bang,
hearing several more velvet booms. I rode the stream of consciousness back
through all of creation, and what a ride it was! The super-clusters of
galaxies came through me with even more insights. I passed through the
center of our galaxy, which is a black hole. Black holes are the great
processors or recyclers of the universe. Do you know what is on the other
side of a black hole? We are; our galaxy; which has been reprocessed from
In its total energy configuration, the galaxy looked like a fantastic city
of lights. All energy this side of the Big Bang is light. Every sub-atom,
atom, star, planet, even consciousness itself is made of light and has a
frequency and/or particle. Light is living stuff. Everything is made of
light, even stones. So everything is alive. Everything is made from the
light of God; everything is very intelligent. As I rode the stream
on and on, I could eventually see a huge light coming. I knew it was the
first light; the Higher Self light matrix of our solar system. Then the
entire solar system appeared in the light, accompanied by one of those
I saw that the solar system we live in is our larger, local body. This is
our local body and we are much bigger than we imagine. I saw that the
solar system is our body. I am a part of this, and the earth is this great
created being that we are, and we are the part of it that knows that it
is. But we are only that part of it. We are not everything, but we are
that part of it that knows that it is.
I could see all the energy that this solar system generates, and it is an
incredible light show! I could hear the music of the spheres. Our solar
system, as do all celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of light,
sound and vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other star
systems can spot life as we know it in the universe by the vibratory or
energy matrix imprint. It is child's play. The earth's wonder child (human
beings) make an abundance of sound right now, like children playing in the
backyard of the universe.
I rode the stream directly into the center of the light. I felt embraced
by the light as it took me in with its breath again, followed by another
soft sonic boom. I was in this great light of love with the stream of life
flowing through me. I have to say again, it is the most loving,
non-judgmental light. It is the ideal parent for this wonder child. "What
now?" I wondered.
The light explained to me that there is no death; we are immortal beings.
We have already been alive forever! I realized that we are part of a
natural living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was never told
that I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was only natural,
from what I had seen.
I don't know how long I was with the light, in human time. But there came
a moment when I realized that all my questions had been answered and my
return was near. When I say that all my questions were answered on the
other side, I mean to say just that. All my questions have been answered.
Every human has a different life and set of questions to explore. Some of
our questions are universal, but each of us is exploring this thing we
call life in our own unique way. So is every other form of life, from
mountains to every leaf on every tree.
And that is very important to the rest of us in this universe. Because it
all contributes to the Big Picture, the fullness of life. We are literally
God exploring God's Self in an infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness
enhances all of life.
As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was
I told, that I would return to the same body. It just did not matter. I
had complete trust in the light and the life process. As the stream merged
with the great light, I asked never to forget the revelations and the
feelings of what I had learned on the other side. There was a "Yes."
It felt like a kiss to my soul.
Then I was taken back through the light into the vibratory realm again.
The whole process reversed, with even more information being given to me.
I came back home, and I was given lessons on the mechanics of
reincarnation. I was given answers to all those little questions I had:
"How does this work? How does that work?" I knew that I would be
The earth is a great processor of energy, and individual consciousness
evolves out of that into each one of us. I thought of myself as a human
for the first time, and I was happy to be that. >From what I have seen, I
would be happy to be an atom in this universe. An atom. So to be the human
part of God ... this is the most fantastic blessing. It is a blessing
beyond our wildest estimation of what blessing can be. For each and every
one of us to be the human part of this experience is awesome, and
magnificent. Each and every one of us, no matter where we are, screwed up
or not, is a blessing to the planet, right where we are.
So I went through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby
somewhere. But I was given a lesson on how individual identity and
consciousness evolve. So I reincarnated back into this body. I was
so surprised when I opened my eyes. I do not know why, because I
understood it, but it was still such a surprise to be back in this body,
back in my room with someone looking over me crying her eyes out. It was
my hospice caretaker. She had given up an hour and a half after finding me
dead. She was sure I was dead; all the signs of death were there - I was
getting stiff. We do not know how long I was dead, but we do know that it
was an hour and a half since I was found. She honored my wish to have my
newly dead body left alone for a few hours as much as she could. We had an
amplified stethoscope and many ways of checking out the vital functions of
the body to see what was happening. She can verify that I really was dead.
It was not a near-death experience. I experienced death itself for at
least an hour and a half. She found me dead and checked the stethoscope,
blood pressure and heart rate monitor for an hour and a half. Then I
awakened and saw the light outside. I tried to get up to go to it, but I
fell out of the bed. She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and found me on the
floor. When I recovered, I was very surprised and yet very awed
about what had happened to me. At first all the memory of the trip that I
have now was not there. I kept slipping out of this world and kept asking,
"Am I alive?" This world seemed more like a dream than that one.
Within three days, I was feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than
I had ever felt in my life. My memory of the journey came back later. I
could see nothing wrong with any human being I had ever seen. Before that
I was really judgmental. I thought a lot of people were really screwed up,
in fact I thought that everybody was screwed up but me. But I got clear on
About three months later a friend said I should get tested, so I went and
got the scans and so forth. I really felt good, so I was afraid of getting
bad news. I remember the doctor at the clinic looking at the before
and after scans, saying, "Well, there is nothing here now." I said,
"Really, it must be a miracle?" He said, "No, these things happen,
they are called spontaneous remission." He acted very unimpressed. But
here was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if no one else was. The
mystery of life has very little to do with intelligence. The universe is
not an intellectual process at all. The intellect is helpful; it is
brilliant, but right now that is all we process with, instead of our
hearts and the wiser part of ourselves.
The center of the earth is this great transmitter of energy, just as you
see in pictures of our earth's magnetic field. That's our cycle, pulling
reincarnated souls back in and through it again. A sign that you are
reaching human level is that you are beginning to evolve an individual
consciousness. The animals have a group soul, and they reincarnate in
group souls. A deer is pretty much going to be a deer forever. But just
being born a human, whether deformed or genius, shows that you are on the
path to developing an individual consciousness. That is in itself part of
the group consciousness called humanity.
I saw that races are personality clusters. Nations like France, Germany
and China each have their own personality. Cities have personalities,
their local group souls that attract certain people. Families have group
souls. Individual identity is evolving like branches of a fractal; the
group soul explores in our individuality. The different questions that
each of us has are very, very important. This is how Godhead is exploring
God's Self - through you. So ask your questions, do your searching. You
will find your Self and you will find God in that Self, because it is only
More than that, I began to see that each one of us humans are soul mates.
We are part of the same soul fractaling out in many creative directions,
but still the same. Now I look at every human being that I ever see, and I
see a soul mate, my soul mate, the one I have always been looking for.
Beyond that, the greatest soul mate that you will ever have is yourself.
We are each both male and female. We experience this in the womb and we
experience this in reincarnation states. If you are looking for that
ultimate soul mate outside of yourself, you may never find it; it is not
there. Just as God is not "there." God is here. Don't look "out there" for
God. Look here for God. Look through your Self. Start having the greatest
love affair you ever had ... with your Self. You will love everything out
I had a descent into what you might call hell, and it was very surprising.
I did not see Satan or evil. My descent into hell was a descent into each
person's customized human misery, ignorance, and darkness of not-knowing.
It seemed like a miserable eternity. But each of the millions of souls
around me had a little star of light always available. But no one seemed
to pay attention to it. They were so consumed with their own grief, trauma
and misery. But, after what seemed an eternity, I started calling out to
that light, like a child calling to a parent for help. Then the light
opened up and formed a tunnel that came right to me an insulated me from
all that fear and pain. That is what hell really is.
So what we are doing is learning to hold hands, to come together. The
doors of hell are open now. We are going to link up, hold hands, and walk
out of hell together. The light came to me and turned into a huge golden
angel. I said, "Are you the angel of death?" It expressed to me that
it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a super-ancient part of
ourselves. Then I was taken to the light.
Soon our science will quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be wonderful?
We are coming up with devices now that are sensitive to subtle energy or
spirit energy. Physicists use these atomic colliders to smash atoms to see
what they are made of. They have got it down to quarks and charm, and all
that. Well, one day they are going to come down to the little thing that
holds it all together, and they are going to have to call that ... God.
With atomic colliders they are not only seeing what is in here, but they
are creating particles. Thank God most of them are short-lived
milliseconds and nanoseconds. We are just beginning to understand that we
are creating too, as we go along.
As I saw forever, I came to a realm in which there is a point where we
pass all knowledge and begin creating the next fractal, the next level. We
have that power to create as we explore. And that is God expanding itself
through us. Since my return I have experienced the light
spontaneously, and I have learned how to get to that space almost any time
in my meditation. Each one of you can do this. You do not have to die to
do this. It is within your equipment; you are wired for it already.
The body is the most magnificent light being there is. The body is a
universe of incredible light. Spirit is not pushing us to dissolve this
body. That is not what is happening. Stop trying to become God; God is
becoming you. Here.
The mind is like a child running
around the universe, demanding this and thinking it created the world. But
I ask the mind: "What did your mother have to do with this?"
That is the next level of spiritual awareness. Oh! My mother! All of a
sudden you give up the ego, because you are not the only soul in the
universe. One of my questions to the light was, "What is heaven?"
I was given a tour of all the heavens that have been created: the
Nirvanas, the Happy Hunting Grounds, all of them. I went through them.
These are thought form creations that we have created. We don't really go
to heaven; we are reprocessed. But whatever we created, we leave a part of
ourselves there. It is real, but it is not all of the soul. I saw
the Christian heaven. We expect it to be a beautiful place, and you stand
in front of the throne, worshipping forever. I tried it. It is boring!
This is all we are going to do? It is childlike. I do not mean to offend
anyone. Some heavens are very interesting, and some are very boring.
I found the ancient ones to be more
interesting, like the Native American ones, the Happy Hunting Grounds. The
Egyptians have fantastic ones. It goes on and on. There are so many of
them. In each of them there is a fractal that is your particular
interpretation, unless you are part of the group soul that believes in
only the God of a particular religion. Then you are very close, in the
same ball park together. But even then, each is a little bit different.
That is a part of yourself that you leave there. Death is about life, not
I asked God, "What is the best religion on the planet? Which one is
And Godhead said, with great love, "I don't care." That was
incredible grace. What that meant was that we are the caring beings here.
The Ultimate Godhead of all the stars tells us, "It does not matter what
religion you are."
They come and they go, they change. Buddhism has not been here forever,
Catholicism has not been here forever, and they are all about to become
more enlightened. More light is coming into all systems now. There is
going to be a reformation in spirituality that is going to be just as
dramatic as the Protestant Reformation. There will be lots of people
fighting about it, one religion against the next, believing that only they
Everyone thinks they own God, the religions and philosophies, especially
the religions, because they form big organizations around their
philosophy. When Godhead said, "I don't care," I immediately understood
that it is for us to care about. It is important, because we are the
caring beings. It matters to us and that is where it is important. What
you have is the energy equation in spirituality. Ultimate Godhead does not
care if you are Protestant, Buddhist, or whatever. It is all a blooming
facet of the whole. I wish that all religions would realize it and let
each other be. It is not the end of each religion, but we are talking
about the same God. Live and let live. Each has a different view. And it
all adds up to the Big Picture; it is all important.
I went over to the other side with a lot of fears about toxic waste,
nuclear missiles, the population explosion, the rainforest. I came back
loving every single problem. I love nuclear waste. I love the mushroom
cloud; this is the holiest mandala that we have manifested to date, as an
archetype. It, more than any religion or philosophy on earth, brought us
together all of a sudden, to a new level of consciousness. Knowing that
maybe we can blow up the planet fifty times, or 500 times, we finally
realize that maybe we are all here together now. For a period they had to
keep setting off more bombs to get it in to us. Then we started saying,
"We do not need this any more." Now we are actually in a safer world
than we have ever been in, and it is going to get safer. So I came back
loving toxic waste, because it brought us together. These things are so
big. As Peter Russell might say, these problems are now "soul size." Do we
have soul size answers? YES!
The clearing of the rain forest will slow down, and in fifty years there
will be more trees on the planet than in a long time. If you are into
ecology, go for it; you are that part of the system that is becoming
aware. Go for it with all your might, but do not be depressed. It is part
of a larger thing.
Earth is in the process of domesticating itself. It is never again going
to be as wild a place as it once was. There will be great wild places,
reserves where nature thrives. Gardening and reserves will be the thing in
the future. Population increase is getting very close to the optimal range
of energy to cause a shift in consciousness. That shift in consciousness
will change politics, money, energy.
What happens when we dream? We are multi-dimensional beings. We can access
that through lucid dreaming. In fact, this universe is God's dream. One of
the things that I saw is that we humans are a speck on a planet that is a
speck in a galaxy that is a speck. Those are giant systems out there, and
we are in sort of an average system. But human beings are already
legendary throughout the cosmos of consciousness. The little bitty human
being of Earth/Gaia is legendary. One of the things that we are legendary
for is dreaming. We are legendary dreamers. In fact, the whole cosmos has
been looking for the meaning of life, the meaning of it all. And it was
the little dreamer who came up with the best answer ever. We dreamed it
up. So dreams are important.
After dying and coming back, I really respect life and death. In our DNA
experiments we may have opened the door to a great secret. Soon we will be
able to live as long as we want to live in this body. After living 150
years or so, there will be an intuitive soul sense that you will want to
change channels. Living forever in one body is not as creative as
reincarnation, as transferring energy in this fantastic vortex of energy
that we are in. We are actually going to see the wisdom of life and death,
and enjoy it.
As it is now, we have already been alive forever. This body that you are
in, has been alive forever. It comes from an unending stream of life,
going back to the Big Bang and beyond. This body gives life to the next
life, in dense and subtle energy. This body has been alive forever
already. "We are going to link up, hold hands, and walk out of hell
~By Mellen-Thomas Benedict
Child's Near Death Experience
The first near-death
experience I had was in May of '64, when I was nine. I was running
across the street, and hadn't seen or heard any cars coming. I remember
blanking out in the middle of the road. The ladies in the beauty parlor saw this little
totally limp body being hit and flying 100 feet in the air. I landed on my
head without a scratch, and fell into a 2-week coma.
The doctors were astounded that I lived. They didn't know how I could have
been unconscious on impact, but said that if I hadn't been totally limp
I'd have broken every bone in my body & died.
I woke up briefly in the ER entrance and sat up. Then I was out for 2
weeks. At first, for an endless time - over and over and over like a
broken record I kept seeing those last few minutes of finding 2 pennies
with my best friend, going into the candy store & exactly what w chose and
from what shelf, then going out, getting halfway across the street and
blacking out. Then it would start again endlessly. (A clairvoyant
professor. I had in the mid-70s at a Waldorf Teacher Training Institute
said that "it wasn't a traditional coma I was in, but rather", he said,
"your body was 'on hold' while decisions were being made elsewhere." He
spoke with a British accent. He said that I had to come to the decision to
Anyway, then suddenly, from this endlessly repeating scenario, I found
myself in a lovely setting. I was standing next to a tree in a peaceful
place with a lovely blue sky. In front of me was a charming flowing brook
or little river. All along the other side of it were rolling hills covered
with majestic lovely Roman Cypress trees.
Just to my right was a sweet arched bridge crossing the river. After a
little while I crossed the river and walked partway up a hill to the
closest tree. I sat leaning against its trunk, just enjoying the peaceful
Suddenly, to my left, someone stepped out of 'nowhere', from behind the
next closest tree. There was something very familiar about him - and so
very special about him that I knew - I KNEW - that I wanted to go back
with him (Jesus). In those few moments when he approached I saw the
place where he had come from, and even the architecture of his home. He
came from way way off in another galaxy. It was back and up off my
right shoulder. He lived in what looked to me like a white palace
that had a lovely inner courtyard with balconies overlooking it.
He sat beside me and knew what I had been thinking. I don't remember if we
actually spoke or exchanged thoughts. For quite a while he talked about my
life and what I had done so far. At one point he said that the most
important thing of our whole lives is the laughter and happiness that we
share. (I was a very happy kid, very popular and always sharing stories
etc.) Much later I realized that what he was really saying was that the
most important thing of our lives is the LOVE we share. Happiness and love
are pretty interchangeable, and maybe easier to understand for a
I don't remember everything that was said. But he began trying to convince
me to return to Earth - that it wasn't my time to go with him yet, but
that I'd "be with" him "soon". Then, after I consented to return, he
pointed slightly upward and to the left with his right arm. A square patch
of the sky where he was pointing turned dark light night time, and we
could see the stars there. I knew that the one he was pointing to was
Then I woke up in the Intensive Care room and shocked everyone. The
doctors had told my parents that I wouldn't make it, and I had received
the last rites three times.
I'd often think of this, and realized that, if the scenario reflected real
time/real space then, for the Earth to be seen so bright in the little
cluster of 'stars' we saw from that place, then I must have been on the
spiritual dimension of Venus. Years later at the Waldorf Inst. (which was
really a fascinating "mystery school" experience) my professor explained
that on our way "out" after we die and leave Earth, we stop on the
spiritual dimension of Venus and meet with our guides or teachers to go
over our life with them.
Since then I've traveled
quite a bit and have had many interesting experiences. On my site, toward
the bottom, I tell of a few of the things that happened on my trips to
~ Kristen Vasques
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